I have some great news. First of all, I got my MRI results and have found out that the tumour in my left lymph node is essentially gone! And the tumour in my breast has shrunk down from a whopping 15 cm to less than 1cm! What the what? So amazing. This is what the MRI report says:
“A small amount of faint residual non-mass enhancement [in the breast] is identified measuring approximately 1cm. No suspicious mass enhancement is identified in this area. Overall there has been significant improvement in the enhancement noted in the upper outer quadrant of the left breast. The previously noted mass measuring approximately 15cm in greatest dimension.
Additionally, the malignant lymph nodes in the left axilla are no longer visualized. No abnormal lymph nodes are noted in either axilla.”
That is a whole lot of words that basically make me cry happy tears. And it’s been a long time since I cried happy tears. I have a CT scan next that will also provide more info, particularly about the tumours that were in the neck area. The MRI was only for the breast and under my arm.
Also, today was my last chemo treatment! All went well. At Princess Margaret, when someone finishes chemo, they get to ring the “bravery bell.” I felt a bit wonky and tired as I walked over to it, but once I got my hand on the rope to ring that little bell, I was surprisingly awake. Ringing that bell felt awesome. It made me feel invigorated and, for lack of a better word, alive. Everyone nearby started clapping, and again, I cried a few happy tears.
I know the next few days will be up and down, but knowing that this is the last time I have to deal with all the chemo-related side effects makes me feel strong and so, so ready to be done with all of this. The next step is surgery, which will also be hard, but that’s okay. I keep telling myself this little mantra: The only way out is through. And it makes me feel better and ready for whatever comes next.