Ever wonder what happens after cancer treatment ends? Nope? Me neither! But, I’m finding out, so you can too.
For a little while, I was feeling great. In my last post, I wrote about how great it was to be able to do lots of everyday tasks (the dishes, grocery shopping, laundry, bathtime with Nate etc), and how wonderful it felt. Unfortunately, those things have become hard again. I am so very tired. And I am very impatient about this fatigue. I am SO READY to feel better, I don’t know what to do with myself. My doctor assures me that the fatigue is normal, and not to be too concerned by it. This is how that conversation went:
Doctor: So, you are feeling tired?
Me: Yes, SO SO tired. Exhausted!
Doctor: And you just defended your dissertation?
D: And you just started a new job?
D: And you just walked 32km for charity? And raised over $32,000!
D: and you have a toddler at home?
D: And you finished treatment just two months ago…So, you are tired….
M: yes. I see your point, doctor.
Basically, she told me to try to rest as much as I could, and to try to be patient. She said, “you have just finished the fight of your life, for your life. Let yourself be tired.”
Then, she also said this: And thank you, for walking in the Walk to End Women’s Cancers, and raising all that money.
You know what’s awesome? Being thanked by the doctor that saved your life! So, of course, I responded: No, thank you! And, friends and family, THANK YOU, for your words of support, for walking with me, and your generous donations! You made this amazing moment possible.
In general, things are okay. I am just SO READY to feel better that I am a bit frustrated. I keep thinking back to how life was before I got sick, and I really miss those days. I’m trying to figure out whether I should expect that I’ll ever feel like that again or just work on accepting that things will never be the same, and that that’s okay too.
Also, these two cakes happened, so how bad can things be?